Ramadan Reflection

And they shall say: (All) praise is due to Allah, Who has made good to us His promise, and He has made us inherit the land; we may abide in the garden where we please; so goodly is the reward of the workers.

This life is truly a journey of worshiping Allah. So often we get distracted by the busyness of this world. Our entire purpose is to worship Allah, without that we are just lost and wandering aimlessly. I have been struggling so much with this over the last year and a half. I felt so lost because of so many different circumstances that have come up in my life. I have lost my job a couple of times, then I have also been struggling with my health. It is so frustrating to not feel good every single day but look completely fine to the outside world. This discouragement has led me to depression and feeling hopeless. Shaytan wants the believer to feel hopeless, and when we feel hopeless it is so easy to get derailed and not worship Allah in the way we should. 

I myself have fallen into this trap of feeling like what is the point? How could it help when everything seems to always be going wrong. But by not performing prayers or reading the Quran I am only further feeling depressed and burdened by this dunya. When I look at it this way, the answer seems so simple, but the guilt that I carry from not doing what I know is right weighs heavy on my heart. This weight makes it more difficult to then do what is written, this is the trick for Shaytan. 

It is Ramadan now, and a time of so much reflection. Do you want to stay in this difficult place? I myself don’t want to continue to feel so depressed and lonely in this life. I realize only Allah can cure this. In this month I have found a solace I haven’t experienced in a long time. I recommend that we all take a few moments each day to reflect and work on becoming better. May Allah show us all mercy and guide us through these difficulties.